I have so much to do . . .
The day was already spent.
Mentally, that is. Schooling kids in the morning. Teaching lessons in the afternoon. Get home. Make dinner. Guitar. Writing. The list of all I crammed in the day woke me with overwhelming thoughts—and I hadn’t gotten out of bed yet. The alarm mixed in with the fray.
How God broke through my fuzzy, foggy brain, I don’t know.
But he did.
Pray. Martin Luther’s “I have so much to do…I’ll pray” quote came to me. I didn’t pray for three hours, but I did pray and pray and pray. Before I did anything else.
I prayed the truth . . .
- About God. He is almighty and all-powerful. All-knowing and holy.
- About me. I was still feeling sick and needed his strength, his healing. I didn’t know how to handle the day best and needed his wisdom.
- About my life. I was so glad to be feeling better than the day before. I was glad to have some lessons this afternoon. God was providing everything I needed, even in that very moment.
I poured my heart out in prayer for every person and situation that came to mind. My family. Friends. Our country.
As I prayed . . .
My mind became more awake. I got out of bed and moved toward my day. And still, I prayed.
It wasn’t three hours. I’m not sure how long it was. But that big cup of prayer in the morning took my “so much to do” worry and filled my day with sustaining grace.
God takes me as I am and moves me toward where he is.
In my imaginary, perfect self, I wake up early and have a glorious devotional time with the Lord every morning. Instead, God knows—and loves—the real me, takes me as I am today, and moves me toward himself. He whispered “pray” in my ear. He gave me exactly what I need.
God knows—and loves—the real us.
He takes as we are and moves us toward himself.
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 NLT